Busy - I like it!

Did I say that I really love being busy?? Well now I am!
I have two big tasks at the Uni, and two other big ones coming up! Knowledge, konwledge and more knowledge! Gimmie Gimmie Gimmieee!
I'm getting better from my unhealthy days, so it feels that my voice is running back to life, cool, maybe I will be able to sing again soon, frustrating of being tune dead...!
And I miss dancing!! I will really dance a lot these days, many parties and outgoings coming up! Nice! Both here, in Stockholm and at Secret Destinations! Woot Woot!

Hmm, it just snowed for 3 minutes! Even if the sky is blue!!!! Hehe as I wrote in one of my previous blog texts the weather follows your mood. I'm quite crazy today, so that's why it's shining and snowing at the same time! haha!
Hmm, Snow and Sun again together! Awsome! And Cold! But no way Im taking the cap and gloves yet, it's still October!!! Sun Pride!

I'm fascinated about how I can be so energic today even If I didn't sleep so well at all last night!
I'm reading a spooky tingled ghost novel and of course I usually read books before I sleep, in my bed, late at night, hmm...
This is a new book from Sarah Waters, " The little stranger", and until now I find it really good!

"In a dusty post-war summer in rural Warwickshire, a doctor is called to a patient at lonely Hundreds Hall. Home to the Ayres family for over two centuries, the Georgian house, once grand and handsome, is now in decline, its masonry crumbling, its gardens choked with weeds, the clock in its stable yard permanently fixed at twenty to nine. Its owners – mother, son and daughter – are struggling to keep pace with a changing society, as well as with conflicts of their own."

But are the Ayreses haunted by something more sinister than a dying way of life? Little does Dr Faraday know how closely, and how terrifyingly, their story is about to become entwined with his."

It's a really nice chilling story, perfect for the autumn season! the story in the book develops through summer and winter so it fits great!
Anyway I had problem falling at sleep, it became very spooky indeed in the middle!

I'm normally read two books/month sometimes more, and I really like to change genre, from thriller to romantic novels, from history books to adventure stories! It's an imagination training where you can just jump in another person, or another way of life wherever you like!

My home is the World

Another calm day, another day of rest, but I have decided that this is my last day of resting, now I'm healthy and strong enough to go back to my ordinary life. I'm relieved! I have so many things to do and I must ask the time to give me more hours/ day!

Even if I go back to my ordinary days, I'm not an ordinary person. Acutally no one is. Everyone is special and each day is unique for each of us.
I don't have just one place to call home, the entire world for me is my home. Where my family is, my love is, the places of great memories are, places where I grew up, places that made me sad and happy, places where people remember my name are my home.

Jämtland is more close at heart because it's the only place that has never changed, and where I have kept my childhood secrets and stories. I wish I was there now, by the lake and admiring the strong autumn colors of the woods. My grandparents become so real again at soon as I get there, making me happy!

Bari is where my family live, and where they are is always home, I grew up in Italy and plenty of my roots are still there, half of me is italian, and that's why I really miss the warm culture and the traditions. I wish I could be there, see my cousins' children grow, talking about everything with my sisters, spending my time with my parents and eat the great food!

Bali is where my new home is, where I can feel free, where my soul rests. In Asia I'm not swedish nor italian, I'm just a foreigner. But there I can feel the balance of both culture that embrace my personality. That's why I feel home and welcome. I met many good friends, and learned meaningful things there. The simple,calm sense of life meets the organized chaos under a sky of gods.

"We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make our world"

Blue through Grey

How can the sky be blue if it's covered by clouds? An extraordinary light effect this evening. I use to see clouds getting light pink from the sunset, but the sun today didn't make it through! Well, thank you clouds for giving us a blue, pastel colour, instead av the common Mr. Grey.
It says that the sky is the mirrow of our feelings, that actually everyone sees the sky in different colours. My heart is very blue today, so maybe that's why the clouds make me company in my today's mood.

My fever is better today, but I can't talk so loud, and my cough is bad, with more rest, and more medicine I will be just fine. No hospital for me.
But those hours doing so little make me feel so blue. My brain can't focus on anything, and I just want to rest. I really dislike to just leave the days passing by without personal progress. Now I have so much lessons to take ahead, and many tasks to write. But everything has its solution, so I don't feel stressed...

"You are sure sleeping, while I'm at the office, another busy day, days are getting colder without you. I hope I will see you soon dear,,,"

I just recieved this little thought today from him! I felt much better knowing he's thinking about me! I know that the days must be so busy and long, and he's really working hard, he almost doesn't have time for himself, and I admire him. The situation over seas is difficult, with him not knowing if he will take over his family business or not..and with everything that follows with it...

Missing someone is a feeling to cherish. Even if it often brings up sadness, it keeps the heart warm and tender. I'm glad that I miss him, even if I don't know when we will see each other again, I'm thankful for this feeling. So if you are missing someone special, miss that special person everyday with a smile!

Melancholic Day

Kiss the rain - Yiruma- is the soundtrack of today.

I'm having a very bad cold, my fever doesn't want to calm down even if I took the right medicine, so maybe if this doesn't pass I must go to the hospital...
I should been heading to the Sweden Rock Cruises, I paid and made plans with my friends, but I must stay home, pretty depressing, isn't it?
So here I am, dizzy, melancholic, thinking about my life and admiring the rain.
The day is still young and I don't have energy left, so I will cook me some tasty "Pasta ai Funghi" watch a cozy movie, and maybe learn som Yiruma notes. My piano misses me.
My mom does Pasta ai Funghi really well, and today is her name's day, so I will think of her the most.

And I remember You.
I remember that september day, we were eating out, and when we went out the restaurant it was raining really hard, but we didn't care, so we walked hand in hand under the rain and just smiled at each other...we couldn't stop laughing at all.

Missing my family and missing You this rainy day

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